I’m fucking dunzo with it all. So Saturday my cousin wanted to go out since her man had to work the next day and it’d be our first time going out together. I had no plans so decided to go to Dusas (the only place i can get into) with her. So we pre gamed it since I’m not of age. Well my brother comes with his doucher friends and some didn’t say hi ‘cause they didn’t see me. Had I been with him they would’ve walked over. Well I’m texting MY man FRIEND and he invites me over for pong. Keep in mind this is a guy I’ve messed around with before and hadn’t seen in a while.. So my brothers friends decide to go to this one guys house and my brother wanted me to go. Which I did not want to because I’m starting to realize they’re not my friends and didn’t invite me so why show up? Id rather go where I’m invited even if it means that it’s boring or less people. I hate these people, too. They all use each other, they all use drinking to remain close, they get into each others business, can’t talk shit to each others face but rather in back, try to make advances when my brother isn’t around, they all can’t handle emotions or do morals and most aren’t getting anywhere in life. I’m embarrassed I even associate myself with such losers. They’re the same people who talked shit about me when I was dating a friend of theirs so WHY DAFAQ would I wanna be around them? NOOOO thanks. This is the moment I decide to get rid of the negatives and only be around people who wanna hang with me or people I can confide in. Better yet, not revolve myself around drinking with people I can careless for. There’s more to life than getting fucked up. I realize that and now I wanna prioritize, get a job and start playing soccer. Keep myself busy and not have to deal with shady fucks like that.Then my brother makes me feel guilty for dragging my cousin with me, saying I should’ve taken her that other party. She didn’t like the club, (I don’t either) so why would she like your shady fuck friends? I wouldn’t bring a significant other around those people, so why would I bring my own cousin? I really can’t wait to be 21, no not to drink. Just to have something to do in the middle of the night with the atmosphere I want and with people I wanna be around. I need my own life.. Away from my brother. Rant, done.